i just shit out:/ idk why this few days keep shitting haiz.. alright i did pass today! i didnt sleep during Maths,English,Science and CPA. hahah! only D&T i cant tahan anymore slept awhile. nth much happen in school today. Training was... played with Fatin and she only make me laugh. thanks uh! haha! at least i laughed during training FINALLY. she did stupid things i swear. than seniors came and all~ after training went to meet Diana and than down to Hougang to meet Charissa for dinner. things happen. not gonna say and ya shall stop here. nth much to say.
If one day you're crying and there's no shoulder for yu, dun worry i'm here for you girl. i wont ask you to stop but i wil hold your hand and run with to you far far place. now i noe the feeling of keeping things to myself. is really... SUCKS!): haiz.. and once again i asked myself. Am i the only one that you fooled me again and again? i know i should'd tell you how i feel but i just cant control rite? now my life is fool by you-.-
i seriously dw another prob. the feeling really suck up my whole life. idk why god give me such a life. maybe he wan me to stay strong? but god let me tell you this. i cant. i'm a shit. i wanna improve in everythings but i just cant. why god why? seriously i noe you heard me let me know a ans? i wont hate you but love you. i wont blame you but blame myself. idk how to say my feeling now. i just pissed off very easily this few days. i cant smile. i cant enjoy life. i'm just putting a act on it. haiz.. idk wad to do alr. alright god if you think that i'm strong enough go ahead and give me more prob. i'm seriously. the more maybe you will see me in haven few days/mths/years later? as Uncle Peter said i book a place in haven. i will see you there soon yea?): haiz.. but god i hope you could come down and talk to me): i need a listening ears): i regretted things. i'm trying to change to a better person but ijust cant. i love you that much but see wad you have done? you didnt even wave to me. you trying to ignore me yea? just say it. i wont hate you but love you even more. i need time to prove that i love you as much as yoru parents. if there's a chance to let me say I LOVE YOU, trust me i will. haiz.. life is just a hell for me right now. i hope everyday could be better.
FML...):
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