I'm not a good person after all.

i'm feeling like a shit again thats why i'm herer to blog): yknow i'm trying not to start a cold war with you. but the way you text/tallk really hurt me yknow? we not used to be like this. i fucking feel like going back to last time. i know she's important to you also. but seriously i'm a selfish girl thats why i'm being like this. i wan you to get back to her dun you know that? i feel extra. fucking extra. no one know how i feel right now. wtf is this? yknow the feeling now for me is feel like doing silly things again. but i know i can incase my sister caught me): i gave up on you alr. i loved others. i love someone that is better than you. yknow i seriously cant wait for tml to get drunk and than thats it? i cant do any better now. now the one i love alot is alr like this. and now is you. yknow you al make me feel like loving someone is wrong? becoz i always cant cheer the wan i love up. i always hiding my prob. if you could read my mind you will fucking noe how i really feel with all my prob. idk wad to do now. i'm like just puting a act faking a smile. idk why. i feel like doing it again. one by one hurt me again and again only you guys dk anything. only i know. seriously i'm not going to say the truth out whenever you all ask "why you so emo? why you so sad?" but sometimes it might be truth. mum always lying. i'm not at fault. alright the truth is i wanna work but do you even let? while writing this my heart feel lighter but my tears is filling with more water. haiz.. seriously fml. idk wad to do now if i carry on like this. more cuts or wad? haiz.. i try to get over everything.):