I'm not a good person after all.

yesterday went to Jean house to stay over night. hmm.. 10 plus down to meet her at clubbing place. than after that cab back to RM reach about 12 plus. went to her house until 1 plus than went to sleep. 4 plus charissa came. didnt really sleep. 3 plus me and wengyan keep laughing. laugh until stomach pain:D awesome! than woke up this morning and use com and all at jean house. than bused down to grandma house. called Dulce chatted. than slept for only 30mins-.- tsk! than out to leatner fest. is shit only luh-.- nbcb! waste time. whole day headache. my parents are rite. i'm lack of sleep. but i told them was not as idw them to know. haiz.. alot of fucking things happen nowadays. like shit only luh hor.


now you are back to your old life i bet you are happy rite? wow! yknow you are the wan who always making me worry and all. but now not a bit becoz i fucking dun care you:D sounds great rite?:D you got your freedom. i'm always he one who starts with all those talks whenever you are down or wad so ever. but when is my trun? wad did you even fucking do? telling others that i wan some slient? aww.. you are fucking wrong. haiya let me tell you this straight. i got my own fucking reasons.

i told Dulce about my freiendship today. i feel much more relax but you dk there's millons of things still inside. idk who to tell idk who to talk is just always in my heart but when ppl ask i just dk how to fucking tell them. they will just say just say. but the prob is I.D.K how to say. everyone got family prob everyone will have freindship prob. but why am i always having the friendship prob the most? i let you go and search for my own frens now i found my true frens and now... things happen again. alright i did the same thing to you. i let you go. but haiz.. idk wad to say anymore. i like you once,now i love another.now a word for you GOODBYE-delete you from my list-

Yknow i'm always missing you. i know you dk. i dun blame you:D but i'm here for you:D when your heart broke i will help you fix back. whenever you are sad i wish you could read wad i wrote and smile to yourself becoz i love you that much. i know i dun stand 1% of chance in your heart. but you stand 101% in my heart and no one can ever talk the place. yknow i can do anything for you girl.<3 Girl, i love you. i know how much i say this you wont know. but seriously i wanna see your rite now):

i always ask myself "whr are you? wad you doing? are you happy?" and more qus. i ans it all by myself. and i really hope my qus are true becoz i really wan you to have happiness than in the dark. if you are in the dark all by yourself.i promise you wont. i will be there and hold your hand tightly and shine you out:D i promise you girl:D

head fucking pain now): cant tahan anymore.